surrounded by people who think they’ve figured out the world, in a dark room that only exist in my mind its like its doomed to be the last place ill ever see when really i’m doing it to my self rather then just trying to help my self escape instead my world keeps crashing down, its amazing seeing everyone change, i sit by my self literally 98 percent of the time just listening to the sound play out of my ipod while laying down looking up wondering about everything thinking about shit that doesn’t even matter i’m tired of letting my mind get to me and letting the anger build inside of me when all i need to do is get a grip and just smile because its not worth my time, i hate how i cant take my own advice even tho i’m typing this right now and i’m putting my thoughts plan straight out in front of me and telling my self easily what to do i cant, i don’t know why its not hard life’s not hard life’s not dreadful it what we make it if life’s shit then its going to be shit if life’s great then it’ll be great its all on us i just wish i didn’t put my self so deep so far into this hole in the ground i end up pushing everyone away with out even meaning to, its funny because i know nearly no one will read this what for? we all have shit who would want to read the feelings of some guy who live in California, not unless the post involves drugs or a beautiful girl/guy half naked striking a pose with a cigarrette in there hand, its not worth the time to read, look at, what do we do when were falling down so fast yet so slow and there’s no one to hear the sound of our cry’s and to see our tears come crashing down because people like show this :) because we know that if were to show the truth who would truly care at all no one everyone has there own individual problems, what makes our so significant, its a problem that can never be helped or solved, truly on your own.

i always seem to fuck everything up